this has been true of me for the last several weeks as i anticipated going back to the states. interesting though as i have had to say goodbye to people in the last week and many more this week (many will not be returning next year), this excitement has been extinguished a bit. i truly hate goodbyes and the sadness of it has clouded out some of my excitement.
it is hard to feel like home is in two places. southern california is home...i have family, close friends, i grew up there, i worked there, people speak english, etc. east asia is home...i have my own room and a great home with my roommates, i work here, i go to school here, i have a place i can call "mine", my friends are here, etc. going home this week to the states and planning my two months there with all my travels, i'm also feeling like a wanderer...i'm just visiting. i wont have a routine/schedule. i will be living out of my suitcase. each person that i see, every place that i visit will be different from when i left a year ago. eight of my very good friends had babies this year, including my sister. it will be different to see my friends as moms! i'm sad to have missed the beginning stages of motherhood with my friends.
i think i'm rambling here, but i can't seem to descibe my feelings at the current moment. i am still very excited to see everyone and just enjoy the california sun, but the added emotions and reflections this last week were totally unexpected.
just another one of life's interesting journeys!
5 comments:
hey hun, just wanted to leave u a little note to say that you're not alone in this journey. you have many fellow pilgrims are all too familiar with the pot pourri of emotions. in 11 days, i'm going to move across the country! i'm really excited, but i'm also sad.
praying that you'll have a wonderful two months stateside.
much love,
ollie :>
ps. it really highlights the truth that our true citizenship is not in this world, doesn't it?
Oh my gosh. Get here already. Come play with Piper and meet my beautiful Phoenix. Lets have chowmein when you get back
I'm so glad to have been able to spend time with you while you were here in the States. May your journey back and time spent in Asia be safe and rewarding!
Miss you girl.
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