The Count Down Begins....or Maybe Not!

last week was a tough week. i was homesick, work was rough, relationships were tough, computer issues drove me insane, life overseas was at best bearable. in so many ways, i was losing perspective. i began dreaming of home and the anticipation of coming home this summer kept me going. the count down began. 100 days! 99 days! 98 days! etc.

as i have prayed through this period, God has met me. a message that came up over and over last week was, "come. come to me..." so this week, in my weak attempts to "come", He has comforted, loved, and guided me.

i realized too, that the countdown was making things worst for me because i began to live in the future and not the present. the thought of going home began to make me ignore the importance of each day here and how God can use me now. so, i am letting that go. of course, this doesnt mean that i dont miss home nor am i pushing aside all feelings, but i have to continue to embrace life here too.

it also seems appropriate to announce here that i will be coming back for another year. i had decided several months ago, but have also wrestled through the process. i am confident that this is His best for me.

all that to say.....I WILL BE HOME THIS SUMMER FOR TWO MONTHS AND CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL!!!

I'm ALIVE!!!

hi blog world! i am alive! thanks for all those that sent emails, blog comments, and phone calls of concern. never did anticipate such a long time off of the blog world. things have been so crazy. after 4 weeks in thailand with little to no internet access, i came home to a problem with our connection! it was down for almost two weeks! then, as soon as the internet was fixed at home, my computer crashed!!! argh! needless to say, it has been completely frustrating. i appreciate the fact that you all have been faithful in checking in to see if i had updated! it has also been hard being so disconnected with my world, being that my outgoing phone access is also through my computer. i brought my computer into toshiba to repair under warranty this weekend and they estimated a 3 month repair time!!!! please pray that this is an over-estimation. for the time being, my roommate has graciously allowed me to use her computer when needed.

fyi, my phone number is still working, so please call. i just dont have access to outgoing calls without a computer.

i have so much to update you all on, but do not know where to start....

i think i'm gonna go blog reading first....